Hot Tears.

Emptiness, all I can feel is a void in my chest cavity, the place where my heart was to be. It hurts, it burns, can I rip it apart? Hot tears flowing down my cheeks, take away the pain, let me feel some warmth all over again. The truth of life is death, not to fall in love or find your soulmate, but that someday you'll eventually perish, may it be with hundreds of people crying over your tomb or with no one to bury you.We are destined to die, to turn to ash and mix with the dirt on the ground, but knowing that someone is leaving does not make the pain any less, it still hurts so much more. Being apart, realising that they will no longer be there to talk to, to discuss how life is going on, that you will no longer be able to feed them again, knowing that there won't be any signs of their smile upon those lame jokes of yours, that you never got the chance to say goodbye.

How will life be without you by my side? I already feel the hot tears in my bloodshot eyes as I recall your lifeless body lying in the centre of the room, with hundreds of people around in tears, and dad shaking you, telling you to wake back up from the long sleep you left us for. So hey, my shooting star, I will look up to you each night, smile back at me and shower me with some of your love. Hey my lifeguard, drive away the darkness I've been so used to and bring me back to light, make me get the taste of what it feels like to be shining bright. I will miss your grudges just as much as your smiles. I will miss you not being there to tell me what's right. Hey hot tears, capture her face one last time as I bid her goodbye. This is not farewell though, you won't be getting rid of me so quick. I will talk to you every night, as the wind blows by, as stars and moon shine, by each passing moment, I promise to cherish your existence. Trust me, I will never let you fade, in these memories of mine you shall always reside. Hey angel, I wish heaven is your resting place and you're free from all  agonies and torments, I wish you peace and calmness. I wish you rainbows and fields of roses, I wish you sun rays and blue skies, I wish you low soothing tides, waves that will take you ashore.