Emptiness, all I can feel is a void in my chest cavity, the place where my heart was to be. It hurts, it burns, can I rip it apart? Hot tears flowing down my cheeks, take away the pain, let me feel some warmth all over again. The truth of life is death, not to fall in love or find your soulmate, but that someday you'll eventually perish, may it be with hundreds of people crying over your tomb or with no one to bury you.We are destined to die, to turn to ash and mix with the dirt on the ground, but knowing that someone is leaving does not make the pain any less, it still hurts so much more. Being apart, realising that they will no longer be there to talk to, to discuss how life is going on, that you will no longer be able to feed them again, knowing that there won't be any signs of their smile upon those lame jokes of yours, that you never got the chance to say goodbye.
How will life be without you by my side? I already feel the hot tears in my bloodshot eyes as I recall your lifeless body lying in the centre of the room, with hundreds of people around in tears, and dad shaking you, telling you to wake back up from the long sleep you left us for. So hey, my shooting star, I will look up to you each night, smile back at me and shower me with some of your love. Hey my lifeguard, drive away the darkness I've been so used to and bring me back to light, make me get the taste of what it feels like to be shining bright. I will miss your grudges just as much as your smiles. I will miss you not being there to tell me what's right. Hey hot tears, capture her face one last time as I bid her goodbye. This is not farewell though, you won't be getting rid of me so quick. I will talk to you every night, as the wind blows by, as stars and moon shine, by each passing moment, I promise to cherish your existence. Trust me, I will never let you fade, in these memories of mine you shall always reside. Hey angel, I wish heaven is your resting place and you're free from all agonies and torments, I wish you peace and calmness. I wish you rainbows and fields of roses, I wish you sun rays and blue skies, I wish you low soothing tides, waves that will take you ashore.
Saturday 12 August 2017
Thursday 3 August 2017
Love at First Sight,
And then you ask yourself this question: "Is love like that we see in movies real?" Do these things really happen; looking at someone and feeling time freezing by, the world blurs away and you have eyes only on her, you feel as if the sun's glow has gotten a bit brighter and see an eminent gleam radiating off her eyes, and you smile knowing you've just had your head blown away, you start dreaming and venture to a time where you're both married and happy, without you even knowing her name, you feel intertwined with her, a feeling of attachment that pulls you towards her, you feel as if you've known that face, that smile for such a long time and it's the most real feeling you've ever had. I was just like you guys out there, laughing at those words, calling my ideas cliché and stupid.
I never knew that could happen until I saw that girl, at a hectic station, with a magnificent smile on the face that melted the enormous icebergs my heart was caged in and made me feel my heartbeats again, until I saw those lucid brown eyes of hers bearing the sun's rays and the entire universe, until our eyes locked and I felt myself drowning in the depths of her liquid gold eyes, which took me to a whole different world, until I saw her face which taught me that yes, there was something worth living for after all, until I got a taste of her innocence when I noticed that she was wearing cartoon and flower headbands, until I heard the sound of her laughter which was the most melodious tune I'd ever heard and knew I wanted to hear it every morning, every night and all throughout my life, and she sealed away my soul and made me hers, just by standing out there and laughing at the world, two strangers who never even talked. I could feel the walls I resided into crumbling,she had broken through my defense without even trying, the pathways of thorns felt like a sea of roses. She drove away the monsters I constantly fought, showed me the light. I knew the moment my eyes met hers, I was going to love her for a very long time.
I never knew that could happen until I saw that girl, at a hectic station, with a magnificent smile on the face that melted the enormous icebergs my heart was caged in and made me feel my heartbeats again, until I saw those lucid brown eyes of hers bearing the sun's rays and the entire universe, until our eyes locked and I felt myself drowning in the depths of her liquid gold eyes, which took me to a whole different world, until I saw her face which taught me that yes, there was something worth living for after all, until I got a taste of her innocence when I noticed that she was wearing cartoon and flower headbands, until I heard the sound of her laughter which was the most melodious tune I'd ever heard and knew I wanted to hear it every morning, every night and all throughout my life, and she sealed away my soul and made me hers, just by standing out there and laughing at the world, two strangers who never even talked. I could feel the walls I resided into crumbling,she had broken through my defense without even trying, the pathways of thorns felt like a sea of roses. She drove away the monsters I constantly fought, showed me the light. I knew the moment my eyes met hers, I was going to love her for a very long time.
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